I used to think the world was doomed...that our experience was just one bad house or workplace away from happening to everyone. I thought that because it was so difficult to find housing that felt safe and clean to me that everyone was constantly being exposed to really bad stuff. I now realize that we have just been extraordinarily unlucky. We won the lottery of bad experiences so to speak, a one in a million chance of horror.
One bad house that was bad enough to damage us permanently. Everyone else is fine. I see them every day, walking through life without pain. They can go to the grocery store, go to work, go to their children's school and not suffer through the entire experience. It's just me, me alone who can't work because literally every workplace I've tried brings excruciating pain. Me alone who can't find a school that is safe for my children, safe for me to visit to see their events. Just me who can't grocery shop or clothing shop without horrific pain and suffering. Just me.
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