Showing posts with label toxic mold effects. Show all posts
Showing posts with label toxic mold effects. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 2, 2019

Do...or Die

So I decided that 2019 would be my "do or die" year. I would escape the mold and find a path to healing, or die trying. So we left our moldy house in humid and rainy inland PNW and the hubs found a job in Phoenix. He thought that with Phoenix being in the desert that it would be a dry, safe, smoke-free place to live. I was worried, gut instinct actually screaming "NO!" but his voice and my rational mind said 'hey, it's the desert, how could it be bad?'
How, indeed? Oh my freaking holy hell! Phoenix is the worst, most toxic-feeling place I have ever been. I could feel it like a sick cloud of funk from miles outside of town. See driving there we took a route that took us through some pretty remote and pristine high desert and mountains. It was beautiful and I could feel how clear and healthy the air was from inside the car. But just north of Phoenix, in fact right around Anthem where some people say is outside the Phoenix bad air bubble I started to sense an icky feeling. 

My eyes began to burn and sting, pretty soon burning so intensely that I couldn't even keep them open. My nostrils followed with a burning sensation that soon traveled to my nasal passages. Just as I snuffled out a breath after feeling the burning, my daughter with sinus troubles also mentioned that her nose, sinuses, and throat were burning and swelling. I quickly passed back breathing masks to both girls and swim goggles. I covered my own face with a wet washcloth to filter out the painful toxins and soothe some of the inflammation. I tried to breathe and focus but I could feel the panic setting in. If Phoenix felt this bad on the outskirts, how could we live here? My husband tried to reassure me that it was just something about this area, that it might be better closer to his new workplace. 

No such luck! All of Phoenix has a horrible cloud of toxins hanging over it, mixed with terrible pollution because of its rank as one of the top ten most populated metropolitan areas in the country and its physical characteristics as a valley bowl that loves to trap pollution and toxins between mountains. 

When we got to the hotel, I knew right away things were going to go from bad to worse. I just had no idea how much worse. To be continued...

Friday, March 23, 2018

Our Timeline: Part 1 of the Mold Saga

March 2013
We move into a 2300 square foot, two-story family house on 1.25 acres. It is affordable rent, ample size, has a play area for the kids, and a separate fenced yard for the dogs. The layout is roomy with four bedrooms, formal and informal dining, bonus room, family room, and a huge deck. We think we are in heaven!
April 2013
My oldest daughter is rushed to the emergency room on a late Saturday night with a severe headache that is diagnosed as a sphenoid sinus infection. We bring her home with antibiotics and nasal spray, thinking nothing of it. A late cold that got into her sinuses. The following Monday the hospital calls to say that her blood sample cultured something and she was septic, that we should follow up with Children's in Seattle. She is hospitalized for half a week at Children's Hospital in Seattle with intravenous antibiotics to treat the sepsis and sinus infection. They cannot identify what grew in her blood culture. We make no connection to the house whatsoever at this point.
July 2013
I believe that I have had a recurring eye infection for a month. I forgo wearing contacts for a week, and change them out. When that doesn't help or improve the situation at all, I make an appointment with my eye doctor who prescribes antibiotic drops. After 4 followups throughout the month of July, the doctor determines that the inflammation is not bacterial in nature, prescribes lubricating drops to soothe, and tells me to give it time. I stop wearing contacts and make up completely because the inflammation is so painful I don't want to aggravate it further. I make no connection to the house of course, I actually think it is something viral from our chickens, cats, dogs, or tortoise.
August 2013
My eyes continue to bother me greatly, but I think it is related to contact lens wear and eye makeup, and some sort of allergy or infection. Then one night as I'm helping the girls get ready for bed, I notice my younger daughter's eyes are red and inflamed. I ask her how they feel and she confesses how much they hurt and have been hurting for a while. I instantly check my other daughter's eyes which are also red, both in the whites of her eyes and her eyelids which are kind of puffy. She says that her eyes only hurt a little though but that her head hurts more.
I immediately schedule an appointment both with their pediatrician and my eye doctor. We see the eye doctor first. She says there is no infection in their eyes but she isn't sure what is causing the inflammation. She suspects allergies and refers us to an allergist to get tested. Next we visit the girls' pediatrician. She is baffled by how red and irritated their eyes look, noting that inflammation is in the eyeball itself, the lid margins, the eyelids and also notices that their nasal passages and throats are both very inflamed and red. Their doctor asks them questions I hadn't even thought to ask and discovers that both girls have been experiencing headaches, sore throats, and pain in their eyes.
I am distraught. As a mother, it is my job to protect my children and keep them safe and healthy. I cannot figure out how we are all sick with seemingly the same thing and yet no contagion can be discovered in tests. A light bulb goes off, if it isn't a bacteria or virus, there must be an environmental culprit we're all being exposed to. The doctor prescribes steroids in three forms: steroid eye drops, nasal spray, and oral.
We go home and I begin to research on the internet. Mold comes up in my searches often. I follow the links and it's like missing pieces falling into a puzzle. Every single one of our symptoms are described on these sites as being caused by mold. After consulting with my husband, we contact our landlords with our suspicions.
September 2013
Our landlords notify that they have no money. They are poor missionaries for their church and have no income of their own. They don't seem to grasp the severity of the situation and suggest that our symptoms must have other causes because they are sure their rental home is safe and clean. After all, there is no visible mold in the home. Upon their refusal to pay for an inspection we start to research doing one ourselves. I contact multiple companies and find out that the cost of mold testing is outrageous and prohibitive. Some inspectors even tell us that they won't come out unless the landlord approves it. Our landlords refuse. I finally find one company that will do a free preliminary inspection and will work out a full inspection on a payment plan. I schedule the inspection.
The inspector comes out, and immediately identifies on sight several problem areas. The dryer is vented into the attic, not the outdoors as it's supposed to. The crawl space has standing water and there is evidence of past water leaks with shoddy patching throughout the house. The worst place seems to be the master bedroom which has a waterline underneath it extending from the bathroom. The property is also surrounded by trees, meaning that it never gets full sun to get properly dried and aired out. In the damp Pacific Northwest, this is a problem.
I agree to move forward with a full inspection and pay the $800 deposit. The inspector brings in numerous tools: moisture meters, air collection chambers, infra-red cameras, and much more. After a detailed four hour inspection of the house, he lets me know that he will have the preliminary results for me within a week.
Every single day is torture. I sit on the couch in pain, my eyes throbbing like I'd dropped shampoo in them. My head aching and feeling full and swoozy, there is so much pressure I wonder if my brain is swelling. The girls complain of headaches and sore eyes but I make them stay outside and "play" as much as possible to avoid being in the moldy house. They go to school under protest, only because I want them out of the house as much as possible. My kindergartener cries; she is anxiety-ridden and doesn't want to be at school.
Her anxiety gets to be so great that I pull her out of school. It's just kindergarten and she is at the extreme young edge of the cutoff so pulling her out until next year seems prudent. My older daughter who is gifted and talented and has always thrived at school asks to be pulled out too. She has constant headaches and eye pain and doesn't enjoy her once favorite place anymore. Before the mold house she was a 2nd grader who read at a 7th grade level and did 5th grade math. She was in gifted programs and lived for school. Now she won't pick up a book because it hurts too much, she doesn't chatter anymore, and is lethargic.
I still want her out of the house, not realizing at this point how ubiquitous mold is in the damp, rainy Pacific Northwest, especially in an island surrounded by water. Her school is likely moldy as well as I later learn an overwhelming majority of buildings in this area are.
October 2013
I get the results back from our mold inspection. Our inspector is very concerned. "Run," he says, "don't walk, run!" He says the spore counts are extremely problematic in our home; exceeding the outdoor levels a hundred times over. He also says that the molds that were identified inside are highly problematic; the most concerning is the highest levels of stachybotrys he has ever seen. He says that it is a heavy and sticky mold that doesn't usually become airborne and often does not show up on mold tests because of its sticky and clingy nature. He tells me that because it is showing up in such high numbers on both air tests and mold plate tests that it must be in extraordinarily high numbers. The high concentrations explain why we became so sick in such a short amount of time. Many people take years to get to this point of damage. In four months we have decimated our health. At this point I still have hope though...
To be continued...

Friday, April 4, 2014

The Mold! It's Like a Stephen King Nightmare, only...

it's only too real. In my never-ending pursuit of answers on the internet, I stumbled across this, and while it was obviously fantastical and strange, not unlike a Stephen King story, it also felt eerily possible and real after what I've been through.

For those who don't want to click the link (I'm not above internet laziness myself) it's about a family in 1961 whose humble farmhouse was completely taken over and consumed by a rapidly growing, hyperactive, super mold. They lost everything and could not rid their house of the mold, they had to send their daughter to live with friends, while they themselves moved into a bus on their property and eventually moved away with nothing. 

The mold grows overnight, and even after being cleaned repeatedly, keeps growing back, covering the entire house and all it's furnishings overnight. It makes the farmer and his wife extremely ill, hacking and coughing, and according to their daughter may have contributed to an early demise as well. 

Despite the fantastical elements (covering walls and furniture overnight???) it still feels so real to me. If our mold was visible, it would almost be better, because then you could show it to people, and prove it. See? I'm not crazy! But it's invisible, insidious, and pervasive. It covers all your belongings and entire house alright, it's just not visible. If you can't see it, how can you remove it? How can you get away from it? 

Why is it still everywhere? When will we finally be free?


To reflect on later...

Today was a bad day. Lots of symptoms, and considering how far removed from the original exposure we are, this makes me discouraged. Finding this timeline on the internet broke my heart...I relate so much to the pain and suffering, and am so grateful that it could have been so much worse if we hadn't gotten away from the original exposure as soon as we did. I am indeed thankful for the good things. It all could have been so much worse. Feeling thankful!

Thursday, April 3, 2014

We Have Lost Everything...

And we're not alone. There are many others out there like us, and many more still struggling along without answers and without realizing.

http://archive.9news.com/news/article/342972/0/Toxic-mold-displaces-family

Which I believe is the same as this family. So much of their story is similar to ours:


I'll keep adding more links and information as I find it. Today is a particularly bad day health wise: my eyes are on fire and I have sharp shooting pains behind them and whenever I move them, look to the side, or blink. My legs are shaky and tingly and numb, the muscles feel worn out as if I'd run a marathon yesterday, yet I've done no exercise recently. I'm starting to have the brain fog that makes it hard to write, hence how I'm starting to rely on links and other people's words to say what's going on.

All of the toxic mold posts on this blog say it as good or better than I could, feel free to peruse and learn what a toxic mold nightmare feels like.

Looks like the fourth move is not going to be the charm. It's because of how much stuff my husband brought to the garage from the original moldy house. I wish we wouldn't have made that mistake in the line of so many others.